this is the first post by all technicality. though emotionally, i'd consider it more of a "zeroth post". i won't actually be talking about anything i planned to or even really want to here— this is more me rambling about my experience with the "social" internet.
so. for starters. i'm not really the blogging type at all. i instead have a history filled with countless abandoned and/or empty social media accounts where i thought "this is the one. this will be the account where i start posting things and really connecting with people". needless to say, none of those really worked out. i'm not sure whether it was my life at the time getting in the way, or my brain inherently not working very well with the concept of social media, or if i was just some kid with tons of interests and passions and blogging just happened to be the one thing that always slipped by the wayside, or if it was any combination of those things or other things. but the ultimate point here, is that i'm someone who is incredibly unfamiliar with posting my thoughts online just to post them online.
this blog was inspired by a friend of a friend's blog. down to me using zonelets and everything. i highly doubt our blogs will grow to be anything alike but surely that's what makes this whole thing fun. finding that blog and reading through it was a rather interesting experience for me. raised on the internet and someone who has watched the net slowly but surely coalesce into only a handful of websites that everyone just cycles through, it felt like a breath of fresh air to click on a website and:
- not feel like i was either being sold something or that i myself was the product
- not be bombarded with an algorithm of any kind
- not be encouraged to make an account so i can actually view the page in full. and
- not feel overwhelmed (as i tend to) with all of the smaller little eye-grabbing, attention demanding things that just about every other modern day website has
in short. the site felt quiet. incredibly quiet in a sea of cacophonous images, algorithms, notifications, thumbnails, posts, etc.
i hope that this blog, no matter how anyone finds it, can give the reader the same feeling of quiet and calm as that one blog did for me. and— much more selfishly— i hope that i can learn a little bit more about myself through this blog. the main con of having never put myself out there is that, frankly, i have no idea what people are talking about when they claim i have a personality.
that would be too big of a thing to get into for a zeroth post, though. so i'll leave things at that. lucifer signing off.